mY blOg mY LIfE

2009-09-30T20:30:00.001+08:00

2009-09-12T15:05:00.002+08:00

things happened too suddenly. i dun understand why it gotta happen during this season..

people are almost enjoying themselves and yet i still have 4 extra papers to go besides 10 for next week. the hurt which i dunno how to voice out(er, i mean voice out also gotta take it).

i thought i could do quite well in my sejarah, thinking it's enough of the revision i had done way before hand. i went to school, do the necessary papers and there comes sejarah. the questions were easy but i just dunno what i'm doing, thinking other stuffs while i'm doing. i was so frustrated with myself, i mean well....u guys won't get this anyway. i thought i dun have to bear with so many papers next week, that's why din even follow doctor's advice, just went to school to take my papers but.........ok, pass.......let the result speaks..

do hope i gained my energy to study, i gotta concentrate on next week's paper....i gotta look somewhere good not the bad. whether my goal comes true or not, i gotta leave aside the passed.........

2009-08-14T21:25:00.003+08:00

i know i'm not suppose to waste my time here, but........

i really don't want to see myself have a change of attitude just because of the little stressful life i had..don't know why i'm so pissed off this morning..i've never been so sensitive till i don't care everything around me. dunno why my mind can thought of throwing all the test tube containing different kind of poison solutions in front of me.

though in the end i didn't did that, but yet i hope my heart and mind are right, focus the right thing and give the best and work the best. been going abit wild nowadays, i gotta change, gotta balance myself right..

From this second onwards, if you read this, you see that my attitude is not right, correct me, scold me or something.
Life is so packed up, long term of study might end up in Tanjung Rambutan....
ARGHHHHHHH

2009-07-28T21:20:00.006+08:00

Countdown Clock by Zoodu.com

Pictures-Teachers Day

2009-07-28T19:55:00.018+08:00

Teachers Day..How long already ah? it's like so many years ago..wanna blog about the pictures long time ago but the camera person did not send me the pictures, have to grab from another blog..thought of stop blogging but thinking about the sweet memories that we have for my very last year of secondary school celebrating teachers day, wearing school uniform, ahhh, why dun i blog?

dun wanna waste so much time here, what about pictures?

The Theme: Pink. i have no idea why they choose this theme, probably this new pengetua loves pink?

Ms Linda & Encik Ishak

My Class Teacher a.k.a Guru Penyayang'09 & the jokers.

Since Form1, i heard of her being the most popular teacher. she get the most popular teacher prize every year.
i look at her appearance, i alwiz thought she was very fierce, whatsmore a discipline teacher? when she teach, i tell you..she can be so dedicated and tolerate with us no matter how much the students say Tak Faham. Miss Out Taking pictures with her that day..

My BM teacher..also the teacher advisor of the school's editorial board & them.
one thing i dun understand, she loves to aim on me among so many Chinese girls in the class.

thinking of why i post so many pictures, yet where's me???
here comes me in the picture..

Pn. Faizatul, one of the EST teacher in my school.
*not suppose to take this picture as they are all 4Sn1/2008 students hor?

As I say the theme is PINK. He tried his best to the best dress teacher yet he is..

EST was a crazy subject to score A, so i'm not that normal in this picture, ignore me please..

MY classmates and the EST teacher..

History is a serious subject..therefore i look very serious here..

Pn Saidah and a few of us..

Me, Amy and the Counselor Teachers..

Ignore me again in this picture..

Pn Siti and us..she very crazy at times..

And last but not least..The Tallest Teacher in the School..

My Physics Teacher. also, Guru Paling Ceria/2009..a teacher who successfully turn the class mindset to love physics more than thinking the other way..
Tze Yuen, Amy, Seaw Chin(Ms Tan) and ME..
we tried to act tall but..tak jadi..
=)

looking at those photos, suddenly miss my long hair, short hair seems like i drop hair more than long hair..ahh, what can i do, i have no time to take care of my hair..shall wait for my SPM to over..

*won't blog that much as what had promise. study and STUDYYYYYYYYY!!!

Everything Will Turn Out Fine

2009-07-15T22:16:00.013+08:00

things getting complicated..life getting tougher as the day comes nearer and nearer..a different feeling each day as the days get nearer..4 months from now....i dunno how to react at times..

...........................................................

jasminine - If We Hold On Together

2009-07-12T16:22:00.004+08:00

that song cause a change in my attitude towards a positive sides. it keeps meditate in my mind since Thursday..dunno y that time so focus towards the talk(which normally i dun take it seriously) but that day i came home feel like gotta start doing something.

It's TODAY!

2009-07-11T11:13:00.003+08:00

IT'S TODAY!!! 11th July 2009
6.30pm
HIN HUA HALL!

More Details, COME and YOU KNOW!!! it's nothing more fun than what you gonna experience..

SO, 6.30pm, HIN HUA HALL!! FREE ADMISSION!

just bring yourself and your friends, brothers, cousins whoever..unless you wanna buy the T-shirts, then bring some money yaaa..dunno where is HIN HUA? Call me if you dunno where is Hin Hua..

COME! if you dun come, you will feel SUPER Miss OUT when you go back to school and your friens says WAH it's SUPER AWESOME!!! Don't Miss Out This Year Ones!

See ya later!

2009-06-28T15:53:00.003+08:00

it takes time to digest, still digesting..it cause heartache whenever i look at the hole(the mark)on my hand..hopefully everything goes well, i DUN WANT to go back and stay there! it cost as much as 2 days of Singapore trip, but it's never enjoying!
wednesday is coming up! it's so much scary than report card day..
pray hard..

read everything! ya, i mean EVERYTHING!

2009-06-17T22:17:00.003+08:00

wanna know more about it? i guess most of you know about it already? yes, it's 11th July 2009, 6.30pm at Hin Hua Auditorium.. u better come, if not i don't know when will be the next one..it's call INTERSCHOOL RALLY! i mean interschool, that means INTERSCHOOL! that means it's gonna be so GREAT..COOL! come letz meet each other, find friends and u come and u experience.... every year is great, and THIS YEAR, it's going to be BIGGER and AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u don't believe, u come and i can tell u no lies that it's gonna be AWESOME!

so, come, keep the dates free!

grab the fliers and get faR beyond excited!

*amy soo, u better come! better come i tell u! :P, YES but i'm serious, please come!

2009-06-07T21:35:00.015+08:00

as i said in the previous post, i'm so arrogant to see the doctor. so YES i ended up didn't see the doctor until Thursday morning, my feet cannot stand my body, i ended up in the clinic.
i returned home, vomit and diarrhea. i cannot stand, only can sleep. eat and drink? i don't even want and i have to reject mum for asking me to eat and drink.

since i ended up vomiting everything after i eat and drink, at last, hospital..
and yes, only ONE word, Sad. Mr Low is so gonna nag at me for skipping class, what can i do right? imagine i vomit in the class? ok, gotta try to cope up with the lesson. someone please repeat what he taught last week before the next class..

2009-06-01T19:28:00.008+08:00

doctor: hi, what happen?
me: i have stomachache, go toilet for(______times)..dizziness..abit of soar throat blahblahblah
doctor: ok, check your blood pressure(then put a thermometer, and all the steps)

after checking.....
doctor: (tell me what happen) i suggest you to eat food like: bread, porridge, cereal, drink plenty of water..
mum: (from the back) she got school tmr
doctor: ok, no worries, i give you MC
me: (awwwww...)

walk out of the door and head towards the counter to take my medicine and pay the bills. go home..

everytime is the same process, the food suggested is all the same..the boring? aikz..

the process repeated every 3 months..dun you feel the bored..imagine how happy doctor have a patient like me..every 3months will be back..

and guess what? this time, i managed to run through, don't have to let mummy force me to see the doctor, isn't that good? imagine that i hv to see the doctor, i might skip 1..2..3, ya, i guess 3 classes.

2009-05-08T21:22:00.004+08:00

ya..i have to do it.. and i believe I CAN DO IT!!!! yea!

anyway, mid term exam starts next week! keep me in prayer again la..i believe prayer can change lots of things and it's proven to be true.

not to boast..i got my most satisfied results in my 2nd term monthly test..it's been a long time i never experienced the feeling of getting a place like this in class, NOT boasting..
well..as all of you know, it's nothing about my effort. yea, NOTHING! if you knw me, i didn't really study(my friens knw), but it's true that i prayed more than my revision..i rely on God more in this test compare to my 1st test.. that's what i learnt from my class top students and i try to apply in my life=) and i'm going to apply the same thing in my coming Mid-Term Exam and the exams to come.

well..thanks for the prayer..and thanks for all those people that cheer me up even as im gonna give up..thanks for encouraging me to "add oil"....AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, THANK GOD! all glory goes to Him. yea, THANK YOU!

if you ask me, yes, i crossed the line..i know there might be obstacles coming up..i believed nothing will stoped me as i learn the way....all it takes will be faith..

i believe i will get A1 for my ADD MATHS! this time. whether you believe or not, it's up to you..but i know for sure I WILL get! YES! i'm going to get it!

Next, i will pass my Bio and Sej..i'm going to PASS. i will get a better grade in my Chemistry! i will get A1 in my Maths..i will get a much better result in the other subject: BM, Eng, Moral, Phy and EST.
I WILL GET A BETTER RESULTS THIS TIME!

by the way, i need prayer and support la..i knw i can't do this alone. i have limits but i can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me.(Philip 4:13)

2009-04-12T12:44:00.005+08:00

resistance will never be the blockage of our life forever..

smile =)

relax your mind..

2009-04-05T17:09:00.008+08:00

test starts next wed. keep me in prayer ya.. i need the result to cross the line.
i know, i have limits. i'll do my part and will trust God for the rest.

2009-03-29T17:22:00.005+08:00

had a chat wit atika just now. well, it's really out of my mind when she told me this.. well, u read it yourself la..

winli says:
hey, u free?
Atika says:
yeah
winli says:
hahah, jus wanna find ppl to chat wit
Atika says:
kinda
Atika says:
lol
Atika says:
ok
Atika says:
haha
winli says:
how's sports today?
*sports day*
winli says:
who's the 1st?
Atika says:
haha
winli says:
2nd?
Atika says:
FUN
Atika says:
FUN
winli says:
3rd?
Atika says:
FUN
Atika says:
first-Kinabalu
Atika says:
second-Tahan
Atika says:
third-Titi(i think la)
winli says:
oh
Atika says:
third is Ledang
Atika says:
XD
winli says:
perbarisan? who's 1st?
Atika says:
kinabalu

well, it's really a shock when she told me first goes to Kinabalu! hahah.. i thought kinabalu (blue house-my house) er..er.. hahah.. that's why i dun even bother to go to school today..well, i missed the part. what's more, it's my last year there! can't witness the joy together.

anyway, i don't really feel regret not to go to school la though ya, kinda miss it, whatsmore yesterday kena bomb frm my class teacher when i told her im not going to school all..

why not regret? hmm.. yea, it's important that i go for sports day, but:
1) no one will fetch me home
2) i dont want to miss church anymore. i realised how important it is to go to church AT LEAST once a week. i realised it and i don't want to regret as how i used to last year.

join Amazing Race! Make sure you're there! wanna join dunno who to find, come and see me la then u get the fliers! Make sure you join, you don't get this kind of race in your life so often! what's more it's Amazing Race! (A teenage wan) dun miss your
teenage life and regret when you're no longer a teenager and wanna join next time! Make Sure You COme!

i'm in a dilema now.. dunno whether i should join amazing race. i dunno what my parents think anyway..really scare to make decission nowadays. i dun mind finding 5 people la, not a tough job to find 5 to join but along the way there'll be people asking eh, u going? or even if they dun ask now, they will ask why din saw u in amazing race that day. anyway, if u're reading this, dont bother whether i'll be going or not la. perhaps, i might going or not, u don't know? i also don't know now..but please MAKE SURE you're there to be part of this fun! u dun get this kind of race so often wan ok..make sure you're there!

2009-03-09T21:31:00.018+08:00

basically, some random pictures..

okay, enough..enough..

anyway, next, this is what i did for the concert in Yamaha Teluk Gadung..i dun like that place cuz..
1) it's too far away from my house
2) the car park is so limited
3) there's no where me and others can really lepak around before the concert starts, the only place is only 99 market; unlike Yamaha BBK, at least there's more Mamak Stalls, Windmill and Jusco blahblahblah..

anyway, i took the initiative to go there just because i need to perform for the concert..everything was great..ahh..pictures..
Note: pictures are for memory purpose, not for anything..

WAH, why so long still not my turn yet??

anyway, that's all for now..till then, have a great week ahead..

2009-02-15T17:52:00.004+08:00

i wanna write something but it doesn't seems nice to talk about emo times where in the previous post i talked about my good times..

hmm..stay strong, i need to stay strong..and i MUST..look at the bright side and smile..somehow it's gonna be okay..i can't give up..NO WAY TO GIVE UP!

THE GREATEST GLORY OF A PERSON IS NOT IN NEVER FAILING BUT IN RISING UP STRONGER WHENEVER WE FALL, i must remember this..it's just a monthly exam, i can't let that kill my future, i still have SPM. i gotta hang on, NOT giving up at this hour!

spm..SPM!

2009-02-14T19:39:00.004+08:00

i just google up the SPM'09 timetable. i was kinda like WHAT??? this year's SPM timetable is just so weird..YEA, i mean WEIRD!

normally principle accounts is almost the end but this year is like so early? and all the science subjects are later than accounts? weird ryte? okie..

okie..i know, what a Valentine Day present..please winli, dun get too stress up! Too stress up is not good at all!

okok, got test next week..COME ON, FOCUS! FOCUS!

before i end, Happy Valentine Day everyone!

2009-02-08T18:03:00.006+08:00

I'm Back to Bloging! you might be asking what happen to me, i'm ok? ya, i'm ok, forget about the previous post, it's just a random sentence that come into my mind that time. i'm ok, no worries, the reason i din't update my blog? nothing to talk about, so dint write.

I LOVE this SONG..i mean song..song..okie? song..hahah..ok..the lyrics that's what i mean..i love the lyrics, it's so..so..meaningful..

hallelujah, you have won the victory
hallelujah, you have won it all for me

death could not hold you down
you are the risen king
seated in majesty
you are the risen king

looking back, it's this song that touch my life ALOT, that change the way i think, the perspective of my life, in conclusion it's this song that brought me back to life..to get closer to Him..to realise that all i need is to count on the True and Awesome God, the God that brings the TRUTH and the LIFE, Jesus Christ! and i'm glad that God had lead me to Youth Camp that time where the 4 days 3nights of camp that mold me into what He wants.

i used to reject lots of time to make the decision to choose not to go to Youth Camp last year where my life had never been right before Him since that particular day..sick..and i thought i will never have a hope to turn back to Him since i choose not to trust Him for that long..and i'm wrong, i know it hurts when prayer never answered, it hurts more when you are down and people around you are trampling at you, it hurts when all those thing you don't wish to happen happen in your life, but no matter how much my hurts are, God will never leave me nor forsake me..He's always there in good and bad times. when prayers are not answered, it's because it's not the right time. i don't really have a reason to sign up for camp but somehow at quite a very last minute i signed up blindly.
i rmb i had a tough time the first day of the camp asking myself why did i made it for this camp, i rmb asking myself is it a mistake/coincident? and i dunno why everything had an answer at the back saying, HEY, it's not a mistake/coincident.
all in all i wud say that God really changed me alot in this camp. i was change mentally and spiritually. i used to get discourage, i used to give up in every thing that i do, i used to get fed up when people asking me to come back to Him/chirch, asking me to continue to strive on..today, if you are reading my blog, i wanna say thank you so much for all of you for caring..thank you so much if you prayed for me, who encourage me all the way. i'm not going to mention names, i know there's alot and i don't want to missout anyone and if you are those, thanks for caring. and not forgetting, thank God for everything. yea, EVERYTHING. without Him, i won't have come to this point, thank you Jesus.

if you are asking, what is that particular thing that change my life the most? the answer is God. without God, i will never come to the right life. YES, the only KEY to get your life change is only to surrender to Him. the only KEY is to let go to Him. once you choose to let go of that circumstances/burdens in your life, things will change to a brighter side.

if you are going through a tough times, i hope you are encourage by this, why don't pray about it and choose to let go completely? once you do that you will feel that everything are beautifully made. yes, i still have my own tough times (who don't have then?)but no matter what it is, i know that God is a faithful and awesome God, He will never leave us nor forsake us every second of our life.

Jesus loves you and me!

2009-01-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

the greatest glory in a person is not in never falling but rising up stronger whenever we fall..

A New Begining, a new year ahead!

2009-01-04T21:52:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna write this to remind myself to start doing what is right:
-complete EVERY single homework given by teachers either in school or tuition. Complete it on time, no dragging.
-avoid the word, I Forget!
-Concentrate in class
-Concentrate on what I'm doing(FOCUS!!!!), e.i. homework, studies, etc. etc.
-To Think More, don't always rely on others to get answer.
-Obey My Parents(it's hard, but i gotta do it no matter how)
-respect the teachers, learn to forgive and forget especially those that hurt me for the past 4 years....(arghh...tough)
-To Trust God Every Second
-Pray Everyday
-Leave every single thing to Him
-Make a difference in cf
-Start doing something on my SPM aim

I Gotta Do It. No matter how, I gotta do it, I'm more than a conqueror. I can do ALL Things Through Christ Jesus Who Strengthens Me! I'm not going to let what others say to discourage Me! That's what I promise Myself at the Begining Of This Year: I'm Going To Rise Up More Whenever I Fall!

2009-01-02T19:09:00.001+08:00

gonna change my blog soon..

=)

2008-12-30T22:03:00.001+08:00

Just came back from Youth Camp yesterDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOhOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

guess what? this year camp was SUPER..DUPER..TRIPLE...OF AWESOMEEEENES!
Those who went for the Camp can testified about it. Yes CAmpus? Can i hear a shoutout from you peepz???? hahah..

Having A Great Time In Air Keroh Resort, Melaka.
The Funs and all..WOWWWW! GREAT! if you're not there, you miss it!

God's presence is just there! We have a Great..Great time, not just playing, splashing, talking, enjoying(all that is just a small matter), but all of us have a great time praising and worshiping the true and awesome God.

Well, you might get a bit shock right here. it's been a long time that you never heard or read that i talk about God. even if i am, if you know me, i'm not serious when i talk about it.........And YEA, I'M BACK! Finally, I came to a point realising that i can do nothing without God, but with God, all things are made BEAUTIFUL AND POSSIBLE. Amen?

God is just so good in our life. it's been so long that I never use this phrase, "God will never leave us nor forsake us". you know what? it's TRUE! it's so TRUE that He is there for us in our tough times and good times. Amen Again!

you might ask me what's the thing that makes me change. you might say how is this possible? you might ask me a ThOUSAND and MILlioN and TRILLION of HOW? WHY? and all. but i'm telling you here, it's not me but it's all about God. The healing, the life transforming, all that comes from the God whom i serve, i love and i worship.

you might say, again is the same sentence that every Christian says, and YES! I'm Saying this also, those trials, those tough times i have for more than 5months, i lack nothing. i learnt the experience and i'm glad that today i can sit hear writing and sharing the joy wit all of you..

this doesn't just end here. ask me if you would like to hear more than this from me..
Watch out the title of my blog in a few days time.

to keep my blog update

2008-12-11T16:30:00.000+08:00

to keep my blog update rather than the usual and unalive blog, i will update some random pictures. i have nothing to write in my blog now, life still the same, writing the same thing seems rather boring and of course reader gets more bored with my blog.

this is my very first time inserting pictures in my blogspot blog. sit back and relax..

holidays-
last three months: to Singapore:

during:

makan time:
in Takashimaya (if i'm not mistaken) Shopping Centre, Orchard Road

later, shopping..

Swiss Bake

Going home, bye bye to Takashimaya.

enjoy walking in the rain.

going home:

home:

*lazy to upload the pictures.

November:Taiping Resort, Malaysia

We always say Ipoh is famous of "Sha Hor Fun" but guess what Taiping is famous of?
check it out wei..u love it.
Kari Roti Heh(Hokien) Curry Bread Prawn(direct translation from Taiping Hokien to English). too bad, i'm busy eating but forget to take pictures.

Penang:

**that's my best to entertain you with my Penang Trip due to lack of memory in my camera.

some pictures might not be clear. u ask why? cuz i use my phone to take those pictures, din bring along my camera.

Till Then, i'm signing off. that's the update, hope that's enough for all my readers.

2008-11-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

ok, i guess no one will read this, sorry for the post break. anyway, exams wat, after exams, i admit, lazy lor..(hahah)

30th November is coming soon..YES, i mean SOON.

hahah..sounds like......(???)erm..ok..nvm..

anyway my birthday is coming soon and Yes, it's this Sunday..

nothing much, just that..aikz..(you know)sad..cuz im one year older..oh..no..hahah..old is no good..

i wish that it won't be another boring day like how i celebrate my birthday for the past 15 years. i wish that it will be a much better day compare to before.
i wish for an outing compare to celebrating my birthday by staying in my room.
i wish for something much more special and surprises.
i wish that i ...................
i wish for ......................

dun wanna say anymore, sounds like something wrong. anyway, i didn't expect all that will be happen this year.. i think it won't happen since the past 15 years had not happen also..

sounds like i gotta stop now.. and i should..bye..mummy nagging ady, i gotta eat my dinner now..signing off..

2008-10-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

9/10/08 is the day..
-signing off-

2008-09-30T21:34:00.000+08:00

i miss it so much..

i do hope that i will get it back..

and i know..
For SURE that im gonna get it and made it through..

you might say not possible but im sure its possible..

2008-09-30T21:23:00.000+08:00

i dunno why am i posting this, so dun ask why if u wanna read.
chill..chill..patient..

take a deep breath and everything will be fine..

everything's gonna made beautiful one day..

u might not know when but it's gonna come where there will be lots of fruits produce.

we dun have to boast, dun have to speak a single word.. noone knows but God knows every single things that we are going thru and He will never leave us nor forsake us..

keep a smile on your face every minute and things will get much better each day.

2008-09-30T21:19:00.000+08:00

since today is the last day of the month, let me speak somehting here ya..

give me a topic please..

er..er...er....

dunno what to talk about..

so letz end it like this then..

so cacat, i know..but i have lotsa fun with it..heheh

2008-09-30T21:16:00.000+08:00

High School Musical 3 is Out in October!

Waiting for It!

=)

no point hidding the truth today..

2008-09-20T18:00:00.000+08:00

Final Exam:
13/10/08 to 31/10/08.

Coming Real Soon: Bout 3 weeks from now.

study is study but sometimes study could end up become a depressing one..at times you really concentrate, and suddenly comes someone and disturb you..with that, your mind went blank just because of this. feels like all the effort and time that had been sacrifice becomes nothing. at times i wonder why we need exams where it brings so much troubles for students...

sometimes i feel so unfair and really wanted to shout at the person who makes everything so unfair! what i mean unfair? because it's exam but still there's people who cheat during the examination. not only monthly test, not only Mid-Term Exam but also Final Exam. Not just once, but every year. if u're Form4 this year, i'm sure u know who's her

i think today, there's no point making it as a secret. The truth have to reveal! i cant stand the way she cheat in every exam and yet she could be the Top-5 in class every year. she isn't that smart to get Top-5 in class, it's proven through so many things..

she's very smart in cheating, for 3 years+ with just a simple scene like this and she's able to get through it:
Before Exam starts:-
Her: Teacher, nak pergi tandas?..(she never speaks the whole sentence in English)
OR Cikgu, nak pergi tandas?..
OR Teacher, Toilet..
Teacher in the class: Ok.
(this happens sometimes)

DURING EXAM(this scene happen EVERYTIME):
Her: Cikgu, tandas? (purposely sounds pity)
Teacher in the class: Ok.
Few minutes later..
Her: *Come back, walk slowly, meanwhile look at her left and right-> sit down.
sometimes, she might walk quickly but everytime she came back she will just take up the pen and start writing.

few minutes later..
Teacher go out, another teacher come in.
Her: *straight away stand up and walk towards the teacher* Cikgu, nak pergi tandas..
Teacher in the class: Ok.
Few minutes later..
Her: *Come back, walk slowly, meanwhile look at her left and right-> sit down.

and it goes on and on to every teacher that comes in..

After our paper were collected:
her: *Stand up*. Tak lah, saya rasa awak punya dah salah lah.
Everyone that's talking to her: Mengapa?
her: (Just keep quiet and speechless with no evidence)
Another person come in with evidence from her book: Ya, betullah. Yo, dah salah!

Before the next paper starts, 'she' did the same thing and the same scene goes on during exam.

enough of all the lies la..enough of cheating everyone about yourself la. enough of telling me u tution Chemistry in Delta, ENOUGH of telling the whole class that u tution with Ms Meera though u need to go to Shah Alam, enough of all that cuz i know it's all lies.. enough of telling me that Mr Yeoh is good, Enough of telling me the exercises that Mr Yeoh gave are the same la cuz no matter how well u promote Mr Yeoh, i'm not going for his class anyway. enough of telling me that Mr Yeoh alwiz teach the right thing ok?! anyway, yr tution centre and Bukit Kuda school are 2 different thing!

enough of earning the class money from last year and this year with the lies that this and that teacher asked u to collect and u end up didnt gv to any teacher..enough of collecting extra money from us for photostates. enough of all that. and enough of collecting so much more from us of all yr lies, im not gonna review here anymore. and ENOUGH of being a good girl in all the teachers eyes just to get markah kesian from them(it's a tradition of 4Sn2) but at the back of the teachers you're making lots of comments. i know u got frustrated to those who dun gv markah kesian, i know the class teacher are one of the person who loves 'rasuah', gv markah kesian to those who treat her very well and with that she helps u to pass that subject which i hate SO MUCH and didnt pass before! i know im not a good person who gets markah kesian from the teachers, but that doesnt mean im jealous, i just dun want to do that, moreover SPM markers were never gv u markah kesian! so, wat's the point of doing that thing now!

i know u're going to hate me if u read this. maybe u might not come accross my blog but if someone review it, u're gonna hate me forever, but it's the truth and i wish that u will changed yourself. when i talk to you, you seems to say i love to 'cari pasal untuk gaduh', now i choose not to talk to you and you might just read my blog with your own eyes and make yourself to be an honourable person in everyone's eyes then.

what does the word "sekejap(english-awhile)" means?

2008-09-05T16:34:00.000+08:00

just dunno how to make the decision..come back again or turn away forever??

though i had made a temporary decision but looking at the situation i just feel like turning away forever. i know..i know, ppl will say hey, stay strong la, chill la and all, but how? tell me la how?

ok, no names shall be mention here.
yesterday(Thursday), one of my subject teacher ask everyone in my class to take out a piece of paper to write down 3 principles that we had asked to memorise a week ago. as usual, most of my classmates didn't even memorise it and guess what? they cheat the teacher by copying each others wan, yes even the Malays did that(ya, it's their so call holy month but they did that also). when they saw the teacher turn her back and write the next topic's notes on the board, they started to take each others paper and started copy.

u can count how many people actually memorise the 3 simple principles at home. the girl that sat beside me just busy doing her moral assignment. i just close one eye and didnt bother about her.

later, she just took my paper and i was like..aikz, u didnt memorise la for sure. and guess what she did, one of her hand took my paper and she say SEKEJAP(what is sekejap? half second? or at least 1 minute? i didnt ask her but just kept quiet and hold the paper tightly. she seems like wanna tear my paper, i remain silent and gv her the look to stop her from taking my paper.

later, whn we were asked to pass up, she didnt even write anything on the paper. only spell out the 3principles' name, didnt even write the definition. i dun even bother whether she spell out right or wrong, so dun ask me what she wrote, ok?!

throughout the whole class, she kept giving me the look. in my heart i was saying HELLO! u given one week to memorise 3 simple sentences and u didnt even memorise and now, u say im wrong? can u say u forget some part? hello? forget ah? if forget also hv limit la, at least u can write a bit ok? that shows tht u didnt memorise, u took mine and copied and can u feel the pinch tht u're wasting ppl's time to memorise and u, being lembu punya susu, sapi dapat nama? and u cheat the teacher tht u really memorise it?! i dun want to tell u anything but i hope u know yrself, whatsmore im not a teacher. i know others did copied but i dun want ok? if u didnt do yr homework, i can close 1 eye and let u copy cuz maybe u will do other exercises to improve. But this is memorising stuff if i gave u copy mine, the conclusion is tht u were never memorise it, im sure! every human is the same. the previous thing that we were asked to memorise and u dun even memorise, fine! yr luck is good, copy. COPY. and now, too bad now u knw im not dis person tht allow u to copied easily. i know, it hurts to do correction 10 times for each principles but there's a consequences in everything.

if i dun let u copy, you think i earn anything ah? u think i will get monthly allowance ah? i dun even heard ppl saying tht hey, u did a great job for not allowing her to copied

sometimes, i just wonder well, i did the right thing, i got scolded or hated, i did the wrong thing, i got scolded. Fine! ok, if u think i shouldnt do this to her, i SHUD let her copy then let me know k? i dun mind if i were to let eveyone copy the REST OF HER LIFE. YES, AGAIN I SAY I DUN MIND! u think copying is good let me know then, dun just keep quiet and you think everything will go well smoothly.

*anyway, this post isnt to condemn ppl! isnt speaks that im perfect. I'M NEVER PERFECT ANYWAY! just to release the geram-ness out and the thoughts. even if u gonna tell her tht i blog about her here i dun mind at all.

something tht speaks to me this week:
tough times can make ones turn away from God at times but God will never leave us nor forsake us. when will i gonna come back to Him again?

2008-08-16T22:48:00.000+08:00

so wish to get back to the right life. i DON'T want to suffer anymore! i DUN WANT to Suffer!

i hope i will walk at the right track..hope i won't do silly stuff though i feel like doing it.
hope the tablets of medicine will never be in my mouth unless with the doctor's advice.
hope i could stay strong. it's hard but i think i can(i think).

really don't want to suffer anymore. i'm trying to think in a very positive way now though it's very hard. i hope in the days to come i can still think positive.
wish i could have the freedom....
wish i wont need to suffer. do hope that every steps that i take will be the right step.

i don't want to have five minutes of happy mood or just one day of happy mood but another day, zap! it's sad and the next day worse. i just don't want that!!!

2008-07-26T21:13:00.000+08:00

it's been quite sometime i din't blog d. i guess some of you out there are going like..haiyo..this win li ah, so long d somemore dun blog when is she going to start bloggin ah?

well..just a little more patient..if u ask me when i'm going to blog, all i can answer is..........wait la..i will blog wan la..wait a little more.

yes..i will blog..just wait a little longer k?

2008-07-05T08:42:00.000+08:00

this is just one of the random post of what we did throughout last whole week when we have an event so called Program Pertukaran Pelajar SMK (P) Bee Kay and Abdul Samad-RIMUP.

this is 4 Sn2..

ya, ya i know i'm not inside the photo but...hahahah..i manage to get this picture. not bad wei..

a glance of what 4sn1, sn2 and sn3 students did during the Majlis Penutupan/Closing Ceremony(i called it Majlis Perpisahan).
i noticed that how Cai Fen smile now is not like how she used to smiled during primary school anymore. Time flies, people changed, even people smile is not like how they use to be last time.

CAI FEN, YYL, M'ch.
the way she(caifen) smiles is different ryte? i dun simply say wan..hahahah..

aikz..whatever, she dun even recognised me d. even when she saw sue may that time-during closing ceremony she also like-huh? oh..oh..ok..talk lesser d compare to primary school time.

-4Sn1-
notice what the girls in front did?
makes me feel so hungry now..

4sn1 again?

where is 4sn2 and 4sn3??????????? MIA(missing in action?)

*to be continue*

here's the continuation(so far i can only get 1photo, takkan i open a new post just to post this for u ppl to read ryte? it will seems so weird. heheh) it's blur, i know, but this camera girl post this pic, so i just copy and paste aje la:

oh ya! btw, Sn1 is so lucky. the guys gave them some kind of thing for souvenir..

nice ryte?

anyway, gotta chaaoz d. all the best people! have a good week!
for 4sn2 and 4sn3 wan, i'll update the photos once i get them from my bunch of noisy friends ya..

RMB NEXT SATURDAY RALLY ya?
12th July 2008(Sat)
6pm
Kompleks Sukan Pandamaran
BRING YOUR FRIENDS!

2008-06-29T11:26:00.000+08:00

hmm, post something just for the sake of laughing..

(curi from Rangers#6 Blog) i know..i know..im quite "ketinggalan zaman" cuz.. 2 weeks ago was Father's Day and now only i post this.
well..for the sake of those who miss this video, watch it now la. akakaka.. btw, Good Job, Rangers..... :)

Another Just For Laugh Video(Youtube):

the greatest glory is not in never falling but rising up whenever falling

2008-06-16T21:13:00.000+08:00

i've learned smtg today..maybe i've discovered it long time ago, just that i dunno only..
things which had passed had passed and it be history all. u can oni learnt from the mistakes that u did but cant hold back with all that.

it's tough to see that happen. but what can i do? it's all past and i cant hold back the past.

it makes me go super moody as i think back of that miserable paper that i got 12 marks only out of 100 marks. i can choose not to look back at it but it kept coming and running in my mind whenever in the class or whenever i took out the book regarding the subject to try my best study hopefully get a better result in the next test or even i took out that paper to do correction. it stucks.

i just don't know how can i get that marks. i did my very..very best this time but it turns out worse than what i got last time. what's happening to me huh?
haihz....dun ask me d..enough..enough..ENOUGH!!!!! i need some fresh air for my mind....hope my parents won't scold me when they found that i got so low marks. even as they found it, i pray and i hope that they cud understand that i really did my best for it.

i try my best not to regret about it as its OVER but..erh............
tears just rolling down whenever i think about it or touch that subject and even blog about it now.

wish that someone will say to me hey, it's ok! no worries..cheers ya........but.....(hmm, okay, nvm..just ignore me..

all i can do is try to smile at it. yea, it hurts. but..what can i do? i learnt one thing today that no matter how tough the situation will be, all i can do is to smile at the problems and try to get through it..someday, i know that the rainbow is going to come out again and im not only able to smile but laugh again..

**THOSE OF YOU WHO KNOW WHAT SUBJECT IS THAT, PLS DO KEEP IT AS A SECRET K?**THANKS Ya?

sorry some english quite cacat cuz..no mood...okay, not going to blog d. chaoz.

2008-06-15T19:27:00.000+08:00

flyeRs..

FOR RALLY!

GET IT NOW!!!

AND tEll the WHOLE WORLD about IT!

Fun..fUn..fuN..AND FUUUUUNNNNNN!

2008-06-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

have you watch the video that i posted few minutes ago? if not, go watch it la rather than wondering around why suddenly there's basketball court there....oh..chop//no need to roll down..here comes(this time don't miss the chance ya).

WATCH THIS:

you get it?
if you don't get it watch again k?

do u believe that something very..very..very GREAT is going to happen?
let me tell you, everything will be made nice..dun get what i mean?

Come and find out on 12th July, 6:30pm, Pandamaran Sports Complex

Date:	Saturday, July 12, 2008
Time:	6:00pm - 10:30pm
Location:	Pandamaran Sports Complex (Open air field)
Street:	Persiaran Raja Muda Musa
City/Town:	Port Klang, Malaysia

everything will be great and i hOpE you WON'T miss out. it's going to be FuN! fUN! and FUN!!!!!!!!

you don't believe it?
COME and find out!

for info, visit www.interschoolcf.blogspot.com

Watch ya?

2008-06-14T19:38:00.001+08:00

COME FOR THE BEST AND EXCITING EVENT IN KLANG!!!!!!

2008-06-08T22:52:00.000+08:00

have you ever come to a place where you feel like out of place?
or
maybe you wanted to jump around but you cant, just because maybe too many people around and you cant jump around as you like.
or
perhaps maybe shout out loud till like the whole world can only listen to your voice?
OR
maybe you want to experience something great-PERHAPS THE MOST HAPPENING EVENT IN KLANG??????????? THE BIGGEST AND EXCITED + MORE HAPPY..HAPPY..ANd HAPPPPPPPPPPY EVENT IN KLANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GET Your Answer Here:-

Where?

CATCH THE MOST HAPPENING EVENT!

The details are as follows:

name oF tHe eVeNT: ISCF Rally 2008
Theme of that Event: LEGACY(come and find out more about the meaning or whatever you want to know)
- 10th Anniversary-(how are we going to celebrate it? Check it out on that day!)
Date : 12th July 2008
Time: 6pm
Place: Pandamaran Sports Complex
Admission: FREE

Trust me, it will be the BEST event that you ever seen. So Get Excited Yea? and don't wait further. NO NEED sign up! Admission: FREE! so, why wait? Don't miss it! Say a BIG YES, YOU ARE GOING! and get excited and..and..and..most IMPORTANT keep the date-12th July 2008(if possible wHolE day free la, to avoid any plans that makes you cant come at 6pm)

See you there!

For more info, log on to www.interschoolcf.blogspot.com

2008-06-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

it's time to stop thinking of holiday or have a holiday mood. school will reopen tmr which is just few hours from now. it's time to get things to the right sequence. it's time to think of my exams papers. it's going to be okay..i know..i know..even if it dont it's ok..never mind..never mind..

i came to a point with a feeling of like oh..it's ok, nvm it will turn out fine, even if it don't turn out fine. IT'S OKAY..

looking back, i also don't know y i can think that way..hahahahah..

2008-06-01T15:32:00.000+08:00

it's been almost 1 month i din touch my blog..so here i cum and blog once more.

It's SCHOOOL HOLIDAY now! this time holiday is not like the past 9(std1-form3) years holiday. i mean not that enjoy anymore due to tuition here and there and extra class for chemistry and accounts. argghh..it's okay..better than schooling time. heheheh
not too enjoy the holidays due to sum misunderstanding between each other[(sometimes, NOT all time, ok?) anyway, im ok wit tht, sumtimes i make the wrong mistakes too. nobody is perfect mer..]

anyway, im not goin to blog about all that..it's just a minor thing..nothing too big

wat i want to blog is.....

please do visit this blog:
interschoolcf.blogspot.com

:)

2008-05-03T17:48:00.000+08:00

borrow this from ah sher's blog(hope you dun mind sher):

"Pain. You just have to ride it out. You can only hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside"

Meredith Gray

things is getting serious and tough for me where i find it hard to go through and i dunno who and where to turn to. find it so hard to be at home and school nowadays. just dun feel like belonging in this 2 place everyday.

that's part and parcel of life..happy, sorrows..and more..when sorrows comes, it'll be kinda hard but whatever it is, there will always be sunshine after the rain.

*patient..patient*

Planet Shakers!

2008-04-12T15:23:00.000+08:00

(copy and paste)

Planet Shakers is Coming To Malaysia-12 & 13April2008

12 April (Sat) : Planet Shakers at FGA
An evening of Worship with Planetshakers & Jamie Haith
Time : 8pm
Its FREE and download the flyer here
Organized by Youth Alpha

13 April (Sun) : Planet Shakers at Sunway College
Planet Shakers Concert
Time : 5 to 7pm
It will be held at the Multi Purpose Hall at Sunway University College.
Yes its FREE .. and organized by City Church KL.
Thanks to Noel for this piece of info. Shakers will be coming to KL after their tour in Singapore. :)

Here's some suggested video clip, check it out yo!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=-X5bz8UQd9U

and more...

*i so wish to go but too bad noone volunteer to fetch me there. sobz*

2008-04-11T19:47:00.000+08:00

my class teacher is getting mad each day!
ish....she just like to talk about those younger teacher in the school and act as it that she's so old and know every single thing.....
sometimes when u try your best not to quarrel with her but she's just want to take advantage on you and purposely scold u like like you dint exist like that. ish..im so geram.....really dunno how the rest of my classmates can stand her..
that day i try not to argue with her about the thing which is quite small but she just scold me as like i did a big wrong and everything she did is correct like that.
luckily i try my best to cool down and walk silently heading towards my class. if not i'll end up to be a person that stay at home everyday and not allow to go to school anymore.
i really dunno y is she this kind of person. sumbody who knows y tell me k?

i'm trying my very best to be very patient with her. argggggggggghhhhhh....hope i dint end up doing wrong things..

until now, im still trying my best to cool down...that's y i dint follow u ppl to go sum where today. yeah, it's true i dun hv mood. there's y i need that time to cool down myself cuz i dun want to end up going there the same as i dint go there.

i think it's better now and i do hope that i'll be better too.

stop angry la, win li..

around the corner

2008-04-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

tomorrow will be Monday. another week ahead.

Attn to All the Students: MID-TERM EXAM IS AROUND THE CORNER! which means another 3WEEKS LEFT! time to study!

tomorrow will be a day of......i think a great day..hahah(i dunno)

I Hate Add Maths and Bio.
i just HATE. I Mean H-A-T-E! HATE!
HATE! haihz..no point saying that d la. it's too late to change class..too late to regret..too late..all i can do is work for it till i like it.

i pray that i wont fail this 2 subjects in Mid-Term exam la. at least pass plssss..

2008-03-18T19:26:00.000+08:00

Basically just want to thank God for my results.

Truly never expect it that i could actually did quite well. i mean not so well la and of course i failed some subject. the worse that i get for my results are not as bad as what i expected.

just want to thank God everything. i just cant believe my eyes that i get A for my Chemistry. in tuition, Ms Linda always say im so bad in her Chemistry. well, anyway, thank God for all my result.
i get back my results for 8 subjects d, left with 2 more. hope it's okay. i know i fail 1, i hope i wont fail another one.

i need to try to get back to God nowadays if i will to join the team to do something. *those who know it especially BK ppl and those retired one, dun tell it k?* i need faith to do that. i cant let the enemies to make me fall just like this but rise up everytime i fall. i hope my parens allow me to join the team to do that thing though it will take lots of time and i hope that i could still do well in my studies and do well in that thing as i join that. i pray that i will try to do it and not to say i cant anymore.

tough times is always bad but all you need to do is hang on to Him so tightly and never walk away from Him.

2008-03-16T23:48:00.000+08:00

tough times is always bad but all you need to do is hang on to Him so tightly and never walk away from Him.

but i dunno how to do the above statement.

trying my very best now to hang on no matter how bad is my circumstances.

honestly speaking, Form4 is tough. everyday u need to go through tough times. the people you face in and out of the house, the homework you need to complete, the tuition u need to attend and so much more..as it go along, it somehow will brought someone like me far from God.

when i was Form3, people kept telling me that Form3 is easy but i always thought that it's the same. now i knew that Form 4 it's not easy anyway. ive been giving up for lots of times. everytime i tried to get back but it wont last long.

i dunno what to say now.........
*spechleeeeeeeeeeeees*

school is gonna reopen tomorrow. everyone will back to normal and more discouragement will comes. problems and problems become bigger and bigger. test results will be out. and i think teachers will starts to comment and comment.

(i'm trying my very best not to blog about the discourages. i just dun want to let people have bad image on them but i do hope that that will stop their bad habits of discouraging one another..hope i can deal with them even as i face them from monday to sunday and each second as i meet them)

2008-03-11T20:03:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!!!!!

everyone say..
FINALLY! (Say Out Loud ok?)

FINALLY!

yeah..
here's my update. i know i've not update for a long time. *soriieeee quiet readers.*

well..i finally finish all my exam. yeah, ALL!
of course i mean all those exam that torturing me la. monthly exam had been postpone from February to March which actually abit torturing me bcuz i use most of my CNY time to study but it turns up to be in March.

erm......how was it?
no idea anyway. and i guarantee i will fail. the first time im going to fail so badly. (yet to get my results) well..what to do? ..........................................(somebody continue plsss)

i wish that school holiday will be longer cuz i dun want to get my results i knw after i get my results, it will be........................................................................(to be continue)

finally..
organ a.k.a electone exam is over. no burdens now, i mean no need to worry if i fall sick or something. how's it? all i can do is leave it to God for this exam. i hope the examiner wont gv me any D though my hearing is quite.............(i really dunno what to say, shud i think positively or wat?) i dun want D inside cuz it dun look nice though i will still pass.

going through tough times..no one is there..all i can do is to hang on and trust Him. i gotta learn to trust God whenever im going thru all these times cuz..........................................(i dun want to continue)

here's how i end this post.
sorry for any ayat tergantung.

2008-02-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

while im still yet to get to the part where i dunno what to do, its better to say something before going to a part where it's so hard to turn to a better side.

i hope i wont end up giving up again like how i did in the past.
despite of the troubles and trials that i have,
despite of how busy life will be,
no matter what life are,
i will still stay strong.

no matter what life is,
good, bad,
happy, sad
or
trillion and one of discouragement
stay strong is still the key
in EVERYTHING.

im still trying my very best
to hang on,
to be patient.
i hope one day it wont be ended up
turning everything upside down and nowhere to turn.

conclusion: i CANT give up!!!!

God, i need you wit this and i pray that i wont end up giving up as u had never giving up in me.

Happy Chinese New Year!

2008-02-07T10:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY
CHINESE
NEW YEAR

EVERYONE!!!!!
Visit Your Friends and Relatives and Get More Angpau ya!

Don't forget to share wit me ya! heheh..

blog....

2008-02-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

this blog will not goin to be activate for some times. sorry people out there......

no mood to blog now..

many appologise for not able to update.

a tiring day for me

2008-01-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

was just trying to update my blog with something though im real tired now.
honestly, i dunno what to update. i just dun want to update the same topic all the time.....

went out for dinner and dad forget to bring his phone out. come back and saw a 2 miss called. so he called up that person and guess what? out of my mind, it's grace tay. she says i've missed 3 weeks of tuition class for BM. i was stuck. at1st my dad jus couldnt believe but after tht his face was like so red and have a feeling of i skip class by ponteng.

after some conversation, he pass the phone to me and after i tell the teacher that i've change venue, she still have a thought like is it? how come i dun hv yr name in the list wan. so everything solved now. Thank God my dad dint scold me for no reason this time.

school was.....................no idea..okay? yeah, i think so. erm, stress.....cant take it easy, cant take it too hard, i just dunno which way i shud go? easy? hard? or what?
tmr is another long day for me. tuition after tuition....i have yet to make up my mind, where to go tmr afternoon. i pray tht as i come out frm the room and proceed on to another classroom, the teacher wont catch me. and the part is that, after school tht teacher wont catch me go back late though im going to tell her tht i want to go back early due to transportation probz.

anyway, gotta go now. need to finish my chem assignment and pass it up tmr..sat is another day special day for my school. i hope i wont faint when i run. kk, chaoz now.....

thoughts of confuse and............????????

2008-01-21T19:22:00.000+08:00

i'm confuse. i still dunno whether to continue with my class or change class. my thoughts is separated into half. i dunno what to say what to do anymore.

if i will to listen to my parents i dun want to enter science class what will it be? will they really give the chance for me to do whatever i want to do?

i came to a point where my thoughts is going wild. i dunno what im thinking. is it right to continue? is it right to change? what am i doing and what am i suppose to do? what can i say? i came to a point where i dunno what God wants me to be. i came to a point where im actually thinking am i continue to serve Him in church or in Cf or not. everytime i go for any events whether in church or CF i get scolded.

i came to a point where im thinking is it that as i grow older, there will not be opportunity to serve or trust God? am i suppose to stop going to church? am i suppose to stop everything and just concentrate on studies alone and nothing else?

im having difficulties in understanding certain subject(not all). i guess is because some of the subject that i dun like and it makes me cant understand. so far, im having difficulties in understand bio and add maths. i cant concentrate when i go add maths tuition. in school, during add maths class the teacher teach super fast. so i can understand some and some not.

i feel like going to science3. Sn2 classmate problem and all makes me get crazy!!!!! if i go Sn3, it will also like that but i cud still stick wit my bunch of pinkie gang.

things dint get well each day as i continue being in the class. sometimes as you want to give opinion in something, they wud alwiz do the way they want only.

the more i stay in this class the more i feel the pressure in studies too. i feel like standing from the 15th floor of a building and jump down only. i cant take it anymore.

as i look through the other back classes thinking shud i go to those class behind and i was just shaking my head wit the subjects. Art..accounts and all.....im not good at those subject. PMR KH-account i get a B for it. Art.....i can draw a human like a pig. serious.

erm, i dunno. it's just the 3rd week of form4 and i gone mad with the subjects that i'm going to study. how long can i take?

i came to a point where i kept thinking, if i will to go to 4V1, are both of them not going to scold me like what i had to face now? are they going to give me a better freedom?

im just like.....ish..i dunno. maybe a form4 world is like that and i have to face each of these things? or what?

i have no answers for that. maybe God wants me to be patient with those headache classmates? maybe i need to be patient?

hmmmmmmmmm........

patient......

2008-01-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

patient is the hardest thing for me to learn in my life..

honestly, i've never wait for something that i've been expected and just have to wait till i dunno how long. everytime i want for something, the most i need to wait is just 1-2 weeks. it's been 2months+, almost 3 months now and the answer i get is still the same answer and never change. in fact, things just end up worse than just that thing only.

im not a patient person. i prefer something that's going to happen as plans as soon as it can. but then, it's not as it is. *discourage*

My Form4/2008 life
time to be patient. patient wit my friends, classmates, teachers tht teach me, class teacher, school, parents, aunties, ppl around me and not forgetting, patient wit God's answer..

patient- studies. i need to take one step at a time.....

patient..patient..
sometimes even as we want to tell someone in something, though u r telling the truth but they dint believe it or much more discouraging is that that person dun even give u the chance to tell the truth.

everytime when somebody say patient i thought it's just as very easy. now i understand tht it's not easy to be patient. seriously not, i feel like giving up in things. i cant take it.....ish..........how can it happen? why must it happen in me? why cant it happen in other people.

im breaking inside.....im just alone.............*shake head*
Lord, i need u..where r u..?

little secret

2008-01-14T18:58:00.000+08:00

have you ever been wanting for something so eagerly and u know that it's going to happen but end up to be something inverted?

there's me. i always wanted something but just end up being upset that i cant understand y it is that it's not happening no matter how much effort i have put in......................

there's one little secret i want to share it with you people.......i hope u will keep it a secret and dun review to my parents, if not i dunno what kind of consequences will be happen. i know some of you know this edy especially those who saw this thing happen wan but no matter how i hope u people who know it or read it, please dun ever review it to my parents. if can, dun review to any of my family members including vincent-my bro too.(sry bro, but if u read it dun tell too yeah)

anyway, there's this thing call the moving class happen to be in my class. not from my class moving to the back class is actually moving to a new class. today the teacher who in charge of arranging the form4 classes bring one malay girl to my class. so, all together there's a total of 39 students in my class now. there's consider alot for my school bcuz one class shudnt be so much wan.

so, the teacher ask us to choose 3 of them to go to science1 if not blahblahblah...

recess time........*cut the story*

almost the towards the end of the day, my class teacher told one of my classmate whom i dunno y went to the staff room and met my class teacher. class teacher told my classmate to ask the chinese gurl who plan to move class wan whether she really want to move or not bcuz Science1 hv too much chinese whole science2 has too few chinese. so after tht gurl talk to the teacher she dint change lo.

wat i want to say is that i just afraid to tell my parens that there's this changing of class. if they were to know, they were sure question me why dun i change.

now they have a thought in their mind that science2 is just as stupid and useless as those class like 4V3 like that. they always think im not as good as my brother. i know if i will to change to science1 they were be more happy and they wont think im a person that is so useless. no matter how hard i strive all this while they were still think me as always not enuf.

what else can i do?

even if i will to be given a chance that i really have the opourtunity, i dun think i will move the class. i hope they cud understand. i cud be more understanding in my studies to be placed in this class compare to the teacher who teach in Science1. i've known who's their teachers for the subject and i dun think i can adapt their teachings. why shud you force me to go to science1?

ish...........
the reason i dun want to tell them is just because i dun want to face their music scolding me wit just this thing. i dunno will they understand or not but looking at how they treat me if i will to tell them about it, things will be bad...i dun want it.

this week.......

2008-01-13T14:05:00.000+08:00

sorry for not update......

im js too hmmmmmm.. no idea.....

this week was crazy.

this was the 1st week i have to study overtime in school..

ah..thank God not everyday..

it was so tired to study till 2pm for 2 days. yeah, luckily the last class of the day of these 2 days is not any of the science subject if not i will just fall asleep in the lab.

normally the teachers wont teach wan. not only my class did that but also the other 2 classes who study overtime wan. teachers come in the class din really teach most of the time was just prepare something for us to do and we have to do it only.

anyway, just follow the school rules lah...........some of them was so pity that they have to study till 2pm and dun have bus to go back and they have to wait in school until the afternoon sessions go back. hahahah, im not taking school bus anyway.

i hope another week was not like that........i hope it will be greater and better..........

for myself

2008-01-05T18:54:00.000+08:00

why shud i be so sad?

CHEER UP..CHEER UP!

I CAN! I CAN! I CAN!

it's the year of 2008 now. a new year ahead. exam is coming soon.

school exam. outside exam. and march is coming in a blink of eyes. electone exam is coming. i shud keep practice and practice. but i didn't. i need to complete my manuscript book, make sure i write nicely and all.

so many things to do. i think i shud set my time lar..

Schooling

2008-01-05T18:02:00.000+08:00

school started 2 days a ago! sometimes i think about it again and i also dunno whether am i making the right decission to make myself in that class.

i kept wondering if i will to go to another class what will it be? maybe it will be better?

maybe i dun have get headache with some of the teachers who teach me? i never thought that this teacher will be my class teacher. never think of it also.

and you know what? even the 1st day im position in that class, i started to feel the pressure being in tht class d. though the competition in my class is not so strong compare to the class next door but i just feeling not rite. anyway, if u dunno, i study something. what school? same school, din change. class teacher? those who know, dun tell k? plsssss.......i dunno whether is it right to be in this class not. i've been praying about it for some times that God will place me in the class tht He wants me to be and whatever the class is im not goin to change it.

it's a surprising tht i was in this class. even my parents dun even think tht i cud get this class as my class. i dunno lar. whatever it is, praise God tht i cud get this class. Thank God.

the teachers tht teach in my class was quite okay actually, heard they are quite good and experience. yeah, i think so. so far 3 teachers enter my class before. but you know what? the 1st and 2nd day itself these teachers enter my class wit only a few words like what book to use, form4 d study hard yeah, not a honey moon year, just these words oni and they start teaching d.
2nd day itself i hv homeworks d. ohh.. dun complain. it's okay, just take it.

u will be wondering what class im in. if u look through everything, the word i use it's pressure and pressure in lots of times. so u guess the right one. science class and i was in science2 now.

also, sorry that i will not update from time to time. not because im lazy(sometimes maybe la, im lazy, hehe) or what just that some of the time i want to update but i forget what i want to update d and when i get something to update tht time i have to rush to go tuition or do homework. so, din update lo.

2007-12-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

i had no idea what to blog about. im thinking and thinking and thinking. hmm.....

ok, i dun wish to blog this but i have no idea what to blog about so i decided to blog something very random. yeah, it's so random.

went to school yesterday(27/12/07 Thursday):

hmmm..
went to school for fun. yeah, just for fun to let people think im very hardworking(everyone says: rajinnya... yeah, that's right)

yeah, jus went to school lar, where got students go to school during the holidays wan.

but then i went tht time, saw lots of people also as hardworking as me. i thought i was the earliest. but then, there's so many of them are there d. then, still have to wait wait wait.

then, about 1015 when everything are ready, the doors open. i never thought to get something is so pressure wan. im not that pressure while i was abit younger but dunno y im so stress tht time. i think it's because lotsa people come out smiling and calling their friens with their good news.

so, dun care la..jus act cool to make people think that im good condition. so, i walk past the teacher's car park and walk past some office and here i come.

walk almost the end, i go into the so call place, i search for the place i shud go and i found it. SW also smile as she get it. then, one to one to another one and another till almost reach me d, someone ask one of the them who stands there, wat u get? i was shocked tht time but pity her also. after that, i almost gone out of place d. hv lots of thoughts in my mind. if she get this what will be of me?

so i dun care and reach my turn. i have no idea d. and i have to take d cuz my dad is waiting. standing half inside half outside the door and he's waiting. i dunno wat to do tht time, but oni kept saying to myself it's ok..it's ok. and then kept making my mind feeling relax by chatting to my friens.

after tht, i get it.
when i look at it, after all, i feel like praising God. expect the unexpected! cool..
i know my level. if i cud get this, it's satisfied d.
but dunno y, when my family ask me (from my parents to my aunty to my uncle to my grandmother), they look down at me only.

ish.....
i just couldn't understand why.
i know im not that smart compare to others. i couldn't compare to my brother who are smarter in this thing.
im not as good as my cousin.
but somehow i did better than my school results and trials.
i get something better than my friens.
so that makes me feel okay.
i think i've done my best for it but always comes in with something saying i dint work hard.

ppl who r not my family says i did well; my family says im not. haihz.
fine..
fine..
if my dad hv a good mood i guess he will not scold me for having this results. jus bcuz something stuck his mood, makes everything and the whole day becoming a boring day.

dun wish to blog too much.
**stop**

The New Created Blog

2007-12-28T23:27:00.000+08:00

i dun wish to update wan, but looks like it's close to the end of the year and i had promise myself to change to a new blog. since i decided to do it i have to do so-to change to a new blog.

here am i speaking..

consider as an update ryte? i write longer than jus a few words in one post.